"ON THE ROAD TO GLORY": This is why I create!

Monday, October 18, 2010

This is why I create!

I create, I throw out my creativity and my thoughts into the universe....I wonder, I despair, no one hears, no one feels the connection, no one understands......and then God in his infinite wisdom chooses to let me know when he wants to and not before.....

"Dear Rosie,
I've been meaning to get this note off to you sooner and apologize for not doing so before now. My husband & I met you at the Newport Farmers Market in early Sept. (I was the gal that forgot my glasses at your booth.) We purchased 2 of your wonderful hats. One for me (that I cherish!) and another for our friend, Darlene, who's been going through cancer treatments.
The day we gave Darlene the hat was very pleasant & warm. When we arrived at her house, we found her sitting in the back yard enjoying the sunshine, wearing a rather shabby baseball cap. When she opened her gift, she got a very wide smile & immediately whipped off the baseball cap and put on her new hat. She loved it, as did her husband Steve. After Steve made a few adjustments to get the flower on the hat placed just so, we all had a nice visit. We're happy to say that Darlene's cancer seems to be going into remission and we are all praying for her recovery. She's regaining her confidence and has started to take short trips to get out of the house. Of course, wearing her fancy new hat! I'd looked for months for just the right hat for her, but never found it until we met you in Newport. I wanted to thank you & let you know your wonderful creation was received with lots of smiles and is being well loved!
I hope our paths will cross again! God Bless!
Marian"

I do not get these affirmations until God knows I really need them and then he showers them down. This has happened more than once and I have finally come to hear and understand his voice. How can I not praise him and give him all the glory.....Thank you Jesus!

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Now that I have advertised my blog in the paper as a spiritual and artistic journey of a reborn Christian and a reborn Artist....Wow what a ride...... I guess I need to give a little history so those who do not know me will understand where I was in my past life and why I am writing this now....

I married at 18, not for love, but because I was pregnant. I had a wonderful son and a miserable marriage. But I was never one to give up and besides it was too easy just to let things slide.

When I was 31 my son was hit by a car and died at the age of 13. My husband and I each proceeded to go our own way in destroying our lives. Alcohol, drugs and rock and roll.

I was lucky in that I could keep up appearances during the day and had a rewarding career in the medical field. One of my conventions brought me to Portland, Oregon and my husband and I fell in love with the Oregon Coast. The marriage was still miserable but tolerable and I saw hope in moving to Oregon to get my husband out from under the control of cocaine. From the beginning of time I have always wanted to fix everyone but myself.

At 40 we moved to Oregon to begin our new life. Seven years later my husband was dead at age 60 from a horrific disease, interstitial fibrosis. I cared for him during the progressive disease which lasted 3 years. He died on father's day. As I sat in the room that morning waiting for the undertaker, I could only feel that our son had come to take his Dad home. I should probably note that from the time my son died I had written God off. There was no answer for me as to why children have to die, especially mine. During my husband's illness, I would walk past the chapel at Providence Hospital and something would call to me to come in and I would deny it, get away from me. I want no part of a God that appears unjust. Then 9/11 happened and that really cemented it in my mind that God wasn't worth the effort letting innocent people die so unfairly.

During one of my tirades about this, to a Christian, there appeared behind him, in blazing letters....."JESUS" Somehow I accepted what had happened in my life as God's will, I could not understand, I just had to accept and believe in his mercy.....and that is the day I accepted Jesus as my savior.

Instantly I was given a person to love, I was given my new husband's two wonderful children and then grandchildren. All that I had lost was given back to me...on faith, blind faith...because we can never begin to understand God's plan......Now I was right with God but I had not let him dwell in my heart and in my consciousness and I had not yet begun a relationship with my savior.

Then my new husband's 31 year old son was diagnosed with osteosarcoma and died..... but not before he brought his Dad and me back into the Lord's house and we became re-committed to God's plan for our lives, his word and his house.

I feel so very blessed that God did not EVER give up on me and he will NEVER give up on anyone until the very end...

Giving up the remote control has not been easy since I am a control freak and have always believed I was the one directing my life. But....I can only suggest trying it....you will be amazed at what happens and the joy it brings.....