"ON THE ROAD TO GLORY": happiness

Showing posts with label happiness. Show all posts

Showing posts with label happiness. Show all posts

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

I'm SO HAPPY I COULD JUST BUBBLE

I'm SO HAPPY I COULD JUST BUBBLE, originally uploaded by Rosie the wildwoman.

Happiness is not known by the things that own you but by the free bubbles we all have inside us just waiting to be released.

....................Rosie the wildwoman

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

THE ONLY SOLUTION

I AM SO GLAD I KNOW THAT IT IS NOT THE PERSON WHO LEADS OUR COUNTRY THAT WILL SOLVE MY PROBLEMS. I NEED TO SOLVE MY PROBLEMS,

I NEED TO QUIT LIVING ON CREDIT, I NEED TO BE MORE CAUTIOUS WITH MY SPENDING, I NEED TO RECOGNIZE THAT IT IS NOT ABOUT THINGS, IT IS ABOUT BEING CONTENT.

I AM THE ONE IN CHARGE OF MY LIFE AND MY HAPPINESS AND I DO NOT NOR WILL NOT BLAME A SINGLE PERSON FOR WHERE THIS COUNTRY IS AT THIS TIME....I DO NOT EXPECT ONE MAN OR ONE PARTY TO FIX THINGS... I NEED TO FIX THINGS IN MY LIFE AND QUIT DEPENDING ON OTHERS OR BLAMING OTHERS . I NEED TO ACCEPT THE BLAME FOR WHERE OUR COUNTRY IS AT THIS TIME AND TO TRY TO DO BETTER....NO ONE CAN DO IT FOR ME.....

WHEN THE USA GETS BACK ON TRACK WITH LIVING GOD'S WORD, THE BLESSINGS WE HAVE ENJOYED WILL COME BACK.....

NO SINGLE MAN CAN DO THAT......SO I SURE HOPE BARACK OBAMA IS A CHRISTIAN....NOT ONE OF THE ONES THAT WILL BE LEFT BEHIND.....

WHEN GOD SAYS ENOUGH IS ENOUGH...WHEN THE FINAL WHISTLE BLOWS AND THE BIG VOICE SAYS "GAME OVER" WHICH SIDE WILL I BE ON WINNERS OR LOSERS????

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Now that I have advertised my blog in the paper as a spiritual and artistic journey of a reborn Christian and a reborn Artist....Wow what a ride...... I guess I need to give a little history so those who do not know me will understand where I was in my past life and why I am writing this now....

I married at 18, not for love, but because I was pregnant. I had a wonderful son and a miserable marriage. But I was never one to give up and besides it was too easy just to let things slide.

When I was 31 my son was hit by a car and died at the age of 13. My husband and I each proceeded to go our own way in destroying our lives. Alcohol, drugs and rock and roll.

I was lucky in that I could keep up appearances during the day and had a rewarding career in the medical field. One of my conventions brought me to Portland, Oregon and my husband and I fell in love with the Oregon Coast. The marriage was still miserable but tolerable and I saw hope in moving to Oregon to get my husband out from under the control of cocaine. From the beginning of time I have always wanted to fix everyone but myself.

At 40 we moved to Oregon to begin our new life. Seven years later my husband was dead at age 60 from a horrific disease, interstitial fibrosis. I cared for him during the progressive disease which lasted 3 years. He died on father's day. As I sat in the room that morning waiting for the undertaker, I could only feel that our son had come to take his Dad home. I should probably note that from the time my son died I had written God off. There was no answer for me as to why children have to die, especially mine. During my husband's illness, I would walk past the chapel at Providence Hospital and something would call to me to come in and I would deny it, get away from me. I want no part of a God that appears unjust. Then 9/11 happened and that really cemented it in my mind that God wasn't worth the effort letting innocent people die so unfairly.

During one of my tirades about this, to a Christian, there appeared behind him, in blazing letters....."JESUS" Somehow I accepted what had happened in my life as God's will, I could not understand, I just had to accept and believe in his mercy.....and that is the day I accepted Jesus as my savior.

Instantly I was given a person to love, I was given my new husband's two wonderful children and then grandchildren. All that I had lost was given back to me...on faith, blind faith...because we can never begin to understand God's plan......Now I was right with God but I had not let him dwell in my heart and in my consciousness and I had not yet begun a relationship with my savior.

Then my new husband's 31 year old son was diagnosed with osteosarcoma and died..... but not before he brought his Dad and me back into the Lord's house and we became re-committed to God's plan for our lives, his word and his house.

I feel so very blessed that God did not EVER give up on me and he will NEVER give up on anyone until the very end...

Giving up the remote control has not been easy since I am a control freak and have always believed I was the one directing my life. But....I can only suggest trying it....you will be amazed at what happens and the joy it brings.....